I’m not sure if I actually liked you or if I just liked the thought of you, yet even as I ask myself this question I still can’t seem to understand why you make me feel the way that you do.
Why you make me feel like just another girl when you don’t respond to my text or why you make me feel unloved when I don’t see that you haven’t liked my post.
I ask myself over and over again, as to why you can make me feel so down when I’m not sure what kept me around at all. I’m not sure why I still want this image of “what could be” and the “what if we just waited it out a little longer” when all you’ve given me is this god awful feeling of loneliness. When all you’ve given me is one big ass shadow of doubt that I am actually worth something.
Why do I still care? Why do I still want you? Why do I keep checking my phone and hoping that you’re there when all you give me is the stench of sadness and disappointment?
And why am I crying now?