Do I settle? And go against what I believe in because he makes me happy. Or … do not?
Well I was certainly not expected the conversation I had tonight. I didn’t know asking about your girlfriend would lead to the topic being about the two of us. Now that was definitely a plot twist. Definitely. I don’t know how I feel about this at all. Hmm.
Can I just rant about how much I hate nearly EVERY SINGLE PERSON in my graduating class? Okay. Done. I will be in a fucking euphoric mood when I am done with high school and won’t ever have to see any of these annoying and pathetic excuses for human beings again. You have no idea how excited I am to be done with people. I honestly wish I would’ve moved a long time ago to a place where “having fun” didn’t consist of being a drunken slob and a pot head. Fuck it. I’m moving. I need to be away from this place and these people, and just everything. I hate it here with all of my being.
I’m really sick of people ruining my happiness. I’m not happy very often so can you just leave me alone and stop being jackasses to me. I’m not rude to anyone else and I give a hell of a lot so I don’t understand why other people can’t be the same way. I’m so sick of this shit. All I’ve ever wanted out of life was to be “happy” but maybe some people just don’t want me to be and I don’t get it. Can’t you just understand that I’m trying to be happy and let me be that way? I mean don’t you think it’s much better than trying to kill myself all the time? I surely think so. I know you’re not supposed to let other people dictate your happiness and how you feel but I don’t understand how that works. How can it? When everyone’s just mean. On the inside I’m crying my eyes out right now, but I refuse to cry forreal. I just don’t understand why people in this fucking world have to be so entirely fucked up that they have stomp on everyone’s life. Leave mine alone. It’s not that great anyway…
